The semester is coming to an end, and the responsibilities are peeling off like barbed layers of an onion. They take some of my flesh with them as they're removed... but I know they will not be coming back in the same form again.
This next 3 weeks I'm going to have to make a pretty big decision regarding employment. It isn't an easy decision. I know what I want, but unsure about the risk value. Most people encourage me to do what I want, and not worry. But some inner-most part of me refuses to take chances too big without others whole heartedly supporting me.
My current employment pays well; I've been there for three years. I'm comfortable there, and they work around a school schedule, as long as I work three whole days a week there. As a senior this year, my classes are impossible to plan in such a manner where I'll have three full days to work somewhere 9-6pm. So begins a dilemma.
I've been offered a experience-gaining position at school. I call it experience-gaining be cause even though it does pay, the pay is minimal and will be taking about a 60 percent pay cut from my current wages at the job unrelated to my field of study. Don't jump to a conclusion that I'm afraid to give up money, because I don't really care about money. What I do care about is finishing school.
My father has been unemployed for what is now approaching three years. His savings decrease monthly, and without a foreseeable income, or efforts on his part to find a job; he seems fearful that he may not have the money to stay where we live now until May. May, of course, being the approximate time of my graduation.
I've worked two jobs for the past two years, and worked throughout my entire undergraduate education thus far because I don't want to owe anyone. I didn't want loans; I wanted to be able to do it myself. I've done average, pulling off a cumulative 3.3 grade point average thus far; that is about a B average.
If i take the position at school being offered to me, I would have to take out a loan to prevent me from going insane with fear that my dad could move any minute and my rent would double. I have a financially subsidize Stafford loan available to me, should I choose to go into debt.
I want to make this decision. I want to stop working just to make money. I just have to find out if the chance is worth taking. Next year’s tentative schedule:
Surprise, it looks like every other year since I started school.
